Sitting, thinking and remembering!

Before we started this newest journey

in our life and our family, I thought.

I thought about many things.

I remember talking with 

the Social worker for our

home study.

I remember showing her some 

of  the rooms in our house.

I also remember telling her

that I would not be

decorating Lucy's room 

until we were officially matched.

Now that time has come and 

the happiness and joy is over whelming!

I know that I need to work

on  Lucy's room.

I know that I need 

to paint the walls.

I need to get the bed

set up.

I need to make time.

As I sit here on the floor.

I think am I really

needing more time

or am I waiting?

Am I waiting ?

Waiting or avoiding?

As I sit here I remember the 

joy of decorating another little one's room.

I remember all the work we put into his room.

I remember how Paul picked the colors.

I remember the girls painting the walls.

I remember laying the carpet.

I remember putting his bed 

and dresser the room.  

I remember the same feeling 

engulfing my being!

I am over whelmed with emotions

as I look around the room.

AM I ready to start decorating this room?

Am I ready to face all the joys and fears 

that occupy the first stroke of paint.  

Am I ready to jump..

Am I ready to trust that this little 

princess will be home 

with us in a little bit of time?

I am ready!

I am ready to allow the feelings 

to help shape me into someone

that is better.

I am ready to be a mom again.

I am ready to have this little one

run through the house.

I am ready to have this gift 

help me with supper.

I am ready!

I am ready because Miss. Lucy Wu

was not ready to be an orphan..

.

Did you hear me?????

I AM READY

BECAUSE MY PRECIOUS

MISS. LUCY WU

WAS NOT READY TO BE

AN ORPHAN!